Sometimes little moments hit me hard. I realize that my life is nothing at all as I imagined it would be even a few months ago. The people and opportunities that have come my way have been life changing and wonderful. I mean hell, I am a mother of 4 boys. Not at all what I would have thought would be my biggest priority nor that I would be with Jaymon for all these years through so much. We still like each other too!
I have grown, transformed and dropped off much baggage along the way that I had been carrying for years that were holding me back and making my journey so tough.
I had to fix my head and heart enough to where I could get the stress and emotional eating under control and start using the running as a tool to help melt the pounds.This has been crutial in my weight loss. After I changed my perception about some things and dug deep and took a hard look at myself and what really needed to change was when I was able to stick with an eating plan and make running a priority. I didn't rush around panicking inside and taking any quick fix I could get to ease the stress and suffering. I was also able to realize that the foods I ran to for comfort were making my anxiety skyrocket and caused a viscous cycle.
I encourage anyone who has an emotional eating issue to try eliminating gluten and dairy for a trial period of a few weeks to see if you feel better. Amazingly enough foods don't always make you feel ill if they don't agree with you. They can cause depression and anxiety as well.
Many tears of fear, rage, and joy have been shed alone while my legs were moving and my heart and lungs were pumping. The silent moments when the noise inside has quieted down after running out the noise.These days 9 miles is the sweet spot. The soul searching while running has been a huge factor in my happiness today and continues to be. Barefoot running was key since I can run the miles without hurting.
Its been scary to say the least to look inside at oneself and accept what is there. I regress and backtrack and make the same stupid mistakes sometimes but overall I am liking more and more the person I have become. I have changed some of my patterns or at least am able to recognize when my subconscious wants to go in a certain direction and I can head that off and have some control. When I eff up I am able to accept that I effed up and move on without throwing away everything in a fit of depressive self deprecating pitty partying.
I have accepted that I have no idea what I will be doing or where life will take me. I lean on Jaymon when I get overwhelmed and say to my self "buck up buckaroo" and hold my head up and at least try to look like I know what I am doing!
When I am feeling down or like I just can't take it another second I tell myself, after looking inside at the resevoir of moxie, that in fact I do have more. One of my mantras is "you've got more girlie". Sometimes if I really need to kick myself in the rear then its "you've got more you tough bitch!". "Suck it up buttercup" is a good one too!
Sometimes I just fake it. I act like I know what I am doing since its better than acting confused and on the edge of defeat. It also helps to look good. A cute outfit certainly doesn't hurt. When you are out there struggling in any way, it helps to look sexy doing it!
Coincidentally, after having a morning of surreal appreciation of my journey, I got home to find an email from Enid at Nuu Muu exercise dresses agreeing to sponsor a giveaway of one of their fabulous dresses to one of you.
So now you have the opportunity to try something new! I am really digging the idea of running in a dress. Its an appropriate dress since it moves with you and so cute! I love my running skirts and this is really just an extension of that style.
Check out the gallery!
Also take a gander at the sizing chart! Love the names of the sizes. I am a Marvelous if you wanted to know.
So head on over to Nuu Muu and take a look around. Remember that they have their dresses made in smaller batches so availability can vary.
In case you missed it I reviewed my Nuu Muu dress here an a follow up after running in it here.
There are two mandatory entries. You must post a comment for each thing you do. Boys, you are welcome to enter for your ladies too or if you really want a dress you just have to post a photo if its for you!
- Be a follower of this blog. Either tell me you already are or that you are a new friend (leave a comment)
- Check out Nuu Muu exercise dresses and tell me what you would like from them.
- post a link on your blog to this giveaway
- facebook, twitter, ect and let me know in a comment each time you do.
Best of luck to you!