Its been a low miles week last week with life and fatigue and sickies taking over. Yesterday I planned to get up and run and get back into a routine however that plan crashed and burned with a very ill spawn being sick through the night before. Poor poor fella. He is in good spirits but still not feeling well. So glad I had some nuun for him to drink (and thank the goddess that its just one of the four boys under the weather). It helped keep the dehydration at bay.
This morning he did make it to school so I was off with Milo my 4 year old in the running stroller. I was missing my hill route in the cemetery so that's where we headed. I have been feeling emotional, and just plain off the last few days. This run tested me emotionally and mentally as much as it did physically. It was a battle to keep putting one foot in front of the other faster than a slow walk. My heart and my legs felt so heavy.
I am terrible at thinking that I have let things go when in fact they build up and fester and its like a snowball of ridiculousness. Running helps to turn down the volume and purge the stress that builds. Things are changing for us. We are all growing as a family and as individuals.Subtle adaptations of every day living and I sometimes get stuck in a rut trying to hang on too hard to the way things are right now. So don't worry! I run because I know this about myself and it just plain makes life easier.
I did seven quarter mile loops at the top of the hill. I lost count so I am pretty sure I ate a loop. Ah well, its better than not getting enough and having a false sense of accomplishment although I really should come up with a better way of keeping track since I tend to zone out.
I had to keep telling myself to "keep your damn head up" and "don't lean over" ,"Stand up straight" and "push the stroller don't lean on it." I was able to keep myself from doing those things but I had to be strict with myself.
I wear my Teva Proton Water shoes when doing hills with the stroller since I need to push off more and I don't want to tear up my feet. Some day I will be able to run with the stroller barefoot on hills. Someday though they will be running with me instead of being pushed in the stroller! Not sure which will come first. For those that wonder, I don't wear shoes to run hills or do speed work unless I am pushing a stroller.
By the time the last hill was being ran I felt strong again and although a little weak inside I knew that I was not going to let the moments I have to run be wasted and as I was running up the last hill I realized that I had more to give and I gave it. I was able to find that energy hidden away and use it! I was happy with my run by the time it was time to go home. I ended up with 6.5 miles.
We stopped and picked some Lilacs from two prolific bushes. Milo is just like his mama was when it comes to picking flowers!
I was feeling hopeful when I found this guy about a 3/4 mile from our house! Ground scores are the best and this little purple headed super hero reminded me that I love to be out there running even when I don't feel it at the moment. He is saying "may the course be with you" in a commanding and yet simultaneously squeaky voice.
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